March 25, 2015

"shall be but a small moment"

I think most of my life I have figured that once I had all of the things that I always wanted, I would be happy. It started out with wanting a different hair colour, or wanting a husband, or wanting a tan even. For whatever reason, I sincerely believed that once I had all of those things on my list then I would be eternally happy and never have a worry ever again.

Turns out, God has a different plan for each of us concerning that. And we will not just suddenly become happy one day because we got what we want. Though getting married was one of the things that I had wanted for a long time, I didn't suddenly wake up one morning and all of my problems had gone away. Some of them had, but then I actually acquired new ones! Don't get me wrong, I'm insanely happy with my life, and my husband and what we have together, but we have trials.

Being a newlywed student getting a simple undergraduate degree comes with a lot of problems. My parents always told me, "Love will get you through times with no money better than money will get you through times with no love," apparently that's a really old song that they know, and turns out, the song was right and so were my parents.

Although, it's not only the "no money" thing that I'm talking about when I speak of trials. It seems sometimes like it's one thing after another, and it becomes very easy to compare your life to somebody else's and wonder how you could get there and start naming off all of the things that are going wrong in your life.

Luckily, I have an amazing husband that will put his arms around me and comfort no matter how irrational I get. I have a Heavenly Father who loves me, and I have a constant reminder that trails are just temporary.

 Alma 38:5 And now my son, Shiblon, I would that ye should remember, that as much as ye shall put your trust in God even so much ye shall be delivered out of your trials, and your troubles, and your afflictions, and ye shall be lifted up at the last day.

I read this scripture almost every morning. I have it open on my night stand so that when I wake up it's the first thing I see, highlighted in pink, and underlined a few times. Sometimes life just seems like all of your trials will never end. It feels like the world is caving in on you and God has forgotten about you and those trials. It gets pretty hard in life sometimes and it feels like you really have no place to turn.

That is why I'm so grateful that I never have to actually believe that, because no matter how hard my life gets or how ever long the trials seem to be, I know that they are a fleeting moment. Heavenly Father has sent us to this earth so that we may struggle, have trials and tribulations, and learn. I realized that when I'm at my darkest times, if I turn to the Lord then He is always there listening, and He cares.

Sometimes it takes a lot of effort to get down on your knees, or get all dressed up and go to the temple, but it's always worth it. I've realized that one of the hardest things is realizing that things aren't going to be fixed right away! Like most things in life it takes a constant effort to get the results that you're looking for!

Heavenly Father has a plan for us. He wants us to be happy more than anything else. He loves us! Sometimes it is hard to trust in Him, but when we do there is a far better plan waiting on the other side as long as we give ourselves to Him and have faith in Him and His plan!

He has a far better plan for each of us then we even have for ourselves. I have seen it countless times! I thought I had my entire life figured out and I couldn't understand why Heavenly Father wouldn't give me what I so desperately wanted and figured would be best for me! And time and time again he has given me something even better than I had imagined! Sometimes it just takes a couple trials, a few downfalls, and the effort and strength to pick ourselves back up and come back to Him in faith before we can truly receive what He has in store.

 It's not easy, but He has never forgotten us. Putting our faith in God and trusting in His plan will bring us out of our trials and toward eternal happiness.


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